hernia?

it turns out that it wasn't a hernia.  it was just a skin infection.  that hurts. a lot.  im just prone to cysts. and i really want this to go away now!  so the matter of fact way that i speak about doctor visits and symptoms and the way in which i talk to the doctor makes me wonder if 1. did she think i was flirting with her? 2. i know im opinionated on a lot of things but should i have just gone down the doctor path 7 years ago?  im not scared of anatomy and i remember being good at it.  not trying to say too smart.  maybe i was just greedy.  could i do it now? again?  3. i have an opinion doesn't mean im complaining.  "i don't like earth tones."