it's always a poignant moment when you realize you made a mistake.  the epiphany comes in the form of past advice you've consistently ignored.  for me, that revelation of humility resonated in the form of my mentor.  "실망이야...u don't need those friends...u don't really need to do all that...in the end....it doesn't take away who you are...just stay home...that's what you're supposed to do..."

i just couldn't grasp that concept before.   i felt it would take away too much of myself.  i felt that middle ground didn't need to restrain my social prowess...and i didn't want to wake up feeling annoyed at being restrained...but to be honest if i had to do it all over again, i'd still need this moment of clarity to fully be at ease with the transition of recalibrating my opportunity cost scale.

after a string of sleepless nights and melancholy mornings, i deactivated my facebook.  i had accusations circling over my conscience and the sadness wasn't worth it.  i want who i am to match the persona i portray.  it should be an accurate reflection upon each other finding a happy equilibrium to better oneself.

10:28 PM

people have been raving to me about the Newport Seafood Restaurant for months.  but you need a big group to go so you can order the 10 course meal.  It's a Vietnamese Chinese restaurant so all the cantonese dishes have a south eastern flare to it.  Pretty much singaporean cuisine if you ask me.  though next time, i won't wait for the big group to go.  i'll just go with my plus one and order a 8 pound lobster for the two of us.  that's the only thing you wanna eat when you're there.  the rest you can save for another meal. or a different restaurant.

7:17 AM

that's the line at the apple store for the iphone 5s.  that's crazy and that's crazy that i'm in line.  but not as crazy as the fact that you can sell the iphone 5s gold for 2k in Asia.  and so it looks like i won't be switching to iphone anytime soon.  i'll deal with my cracked s3 and make 2k thank you very much.

  

7:41 AM

i take a lot of photos.  a lot of food pics.  a lot of scenic pics.  a lot of nights out having fun pics.  and i take a lot of time stamp pics.  i like candid photos.  and i like randomly snapping away.  and when i flip through my album and see a lot of candid fotos of the person across from me.  there's a lot of underlying sentiment to the entirety of the photostream.  there's a lot of actualized emotion embodied in the album.  there's so many things that make me smile and to that effect...makes me sad...

10:48 PM

wallowing in angst is kindred.  being kindred is timing.  and in our case...being chinese helps.  and juxtaposing emotions with trading terms makes it even more poignant.  "big trade" "stop/loss" "cut my losses" "hedge" are words of choice at the bar.  i'll buy the first proseco...then proceed to hold cara's bag as hostage until she takes a shot...clockwork...

3:45 AM

at this stage of my life i lack culture.  i lack the arts.  but this museum was a waste.   even "my boss" thought it time to leave after 30 minutes.  did i mention i was missing football for this???

8:34 AM

i think the last time i came here it was 2009.  i remembered the food to be pretty good however i definitely didn't know korean food like i do now.  i can read now, i can order better now and now i'm recommending korean restaurants in LA to koreans from houston and ex-LA residents.   how things change....especially since michael is now married...

8:28 AM

when you have a 30 person 3way joint birthday of people over 30,  people who have kids, people who bring kids, you're going to end up having birthday dinner at 530pm.  and when you have people like me at an event like this, there's going to be 2 bottles of crown added to the tab.  i don't care if you're drinking or not...take a shot.  cheers.  if you leave me in the crowd of strangers i find a way to get by.  i chatted a bit with mr and mrs linkin park joe han about babies.  and then i had a single mans conversation with the vietnamese guy that looks chinese sitting next to me.  apparently there was a masterchef contestant in the house as well.  but i couldn't stop staring at the korean couple who brought kids.  the wife an apparent athlete or something wore a sequin blazer...and the korean husband had the skin tone of a hawaiin tropic commercial.  almost like the dog brothers in the real sex mtv show.  so tan with squinty eyes and a leather jacket.  i kept thinking if the tan was fake tho the kids were just as tan....odd...

  

10:44 PM

look who i ran into at lock and key...and that's irine's brother?? small world...

8:50 AM

sunny california is so hot and the sun is so strong that most establishments have heavily tinted windows and californians are nowhere to be seen on the streets.  hence it looks like a lot of the restaurants are closed or from the outside, it looks a lot like nothing....섹동 is located across the street from a 711 and looks like nothing from the outside, but once u walk in, u feel like u're in korea.  it's huge with high ceilings and has that korea 이자카야 feel...i'd go back...

5:03 AM

 fishing with dynamite was a great choice!!!

11:20 PM