22MILLION USD cargo right through my hands.

1 load arm
600 cu metres/ hour per manifold
3 day loading.

reject vsl.

SH*T.

"if i can make your life miserable, why do i have to make it easy?"

back from a 3 day stint in jakarta. story of the trip?

we come back @ 1am after a round of drinks. and about 30 min after i get into my hotel room. KNOCK KNOCK.

a pimp @ the door with 2 girls behind him....

....

what kind of industry did i get myself into?

yes i sent her away.
as long as i've been out in singapore, it's obvious i'm not a product of the metric system. it's always the little things, the inbred instincts, the idiosyncratic nuances of ur hometown that gives it away. for instance, everytime im stuck in a corridor with someone else...there's always a prolonged standoff. i lean right to give way left. but of course, they lean left. so we do the mirror shuffle step for the added seconds. it's awkward enough when it's a woman, not to mention when stuck trying to walk through the gym locker room.

more importantly...new camera!
better pictures on this site!

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i spent tonight watching angelina jolie's inside actors studio interview's on youtube and thinking about this bit of advice....

"maybe you should keep putting yourself in scary situations...then that fright will be comforting" - s. kang

solace in fright. why didn't i think of that?






"sometimes i walk around my apartment aimlessly and after a few minutes think ...WTF am i doing"

"you and i are asian american anyway you look at it. u need to go back just to regroup"

"if there was one thing i'd do again when coming to asia, i wish i'd have gone home more often"

-a. nguyen


i cannt believe there's a pub called this (not cheap for an ah beng joint)....but here's the singlish definition....

TALK COCK/TALK COCK SING SONG
To speak rubbish or nonsense. Probably originates from the English phrase “cock and bull”. “Sing Song” is added for emphasis. “Talk Cock” by itself also has the more benign meaning of “casual banter” or “chatting”.
1. “Ah Beng managed to pass the exam? Don’t talk cock!”
2. “I met Johnny at the kopi tiam just now, and we were talking cock for a while.”

See also: Kong Chiao Weh  




for a few of my buddies.....CHOMO!


'Hotties' not so hot when you're in love
UCLA-eHarmony study finds love feelings reduce appeal of potential rivals
By Meg Sullivan | 2/12/2008

As if inspiring countless songs and poems and an international holiday weren't enough, love now is being credited with a truly amazing power: the ability to resist temptation.
 
In an experiment with college students in long-term relationships, researchers at UCLA and the online dating service eHarmony found that asking coeds to reflect on the love they felt for their boyfriends or girlfriends blunted the appeal of especially attractive members of the opposite sex.
 
"Feeling love for your romantic partner appears to make everybody else less attractive, and the emotion appears to work in very specific ways by in enabling you to push thoughts of that tempting other out of your mind," said Gian Gonzaga, an eHarmony research scientist and lead author of the study, which appears in the current issue of the journal Evolution and Human Behavior.
 
"It's almost like love puts blinders on people," said co-author Martie Haselton, an associate professor of psychology and communication studies at UCLA.
 
With their research, Gonzaga and Haselton believe they have glimpsed the biological imperative behind the emotion that makes people feel all gushy and do silly things.
 
"Popular culture may mix romantic love up with sexual desire, but from an evolutionary perspective, romantic love fulfills a different function," Haselton said. "Love is a commitment device, which has evolved to make us identify and stick with a long-term mate long enough to raise a child. Our ancestors who had this ability were more successful in raising their offspring to maturity, so the adaptation got passed along to us."
 
The researchers invited 120 heterosexual undergraduates in committed relationships to pore over photographs of attractive members of the opposite sex.
 
"We got the photos from Hot or Not," Haselton said, referring to the popular dating Web site, "and we only downloaded the hot ones."
 
From the dozens of photos at their disposal, the undergrads were asked to identify the member of the opposite sex to whom they felt most physically attracted.
 
The researchers then asked each undergraduate to compose an essay on one of three subjects: the time they felt the most love for their current romantic partner, the time they felt the most sexual desire for their current romantic partner, or anything they wanted to write about. The third group acted as a control group.
 
"Basically, these students were reliving an intense moment of love or an intense moment of sexual desire for their partner," said Gonzaga, who oversees an observational laboratory at eHarmony's Pasadena headquarters that conducts research in interpersonal chemistry and long-term relationship building.
 
While writing, the undergraduates were instructed to put the attractive other out of their mind. If they nevertheless happened to think of the hottie, they were asked to put a check in the margin of their essays every time they did so. Later, they were asked to list the hottie's attributes.
 
Undergraduates who reflected on the love they felt for their romantic partner were six times less likely than the control group, and more than four times less likely than the group that wrote about their sexual desire for their partner, to think of the hottie. On average, undergraduates in the love group thought of the tempting other once every two pages, compared with more than twice a page for the desire group and almost four times a page for the control group.
 
"People in the love group found it easy to push an attractive other out of their mind even though we made those thoughts tempting," said Haselton, who is affiliated with UCLA's Center for Behavior, Evolution and Culture.
 
In fact, conventional wisdom holds that when people are instructed to not think of something, a "rebound effect" occurs, causing the taboo thought to present itself even more frequently than it otherwise would.
 
Not only were the undergraduates in the love group less likely to think of the attractive others, but they had a much tougher time later recalling the hottie's appeal. On average, students from the love group remembered about two-thirds as many attractive features — such as bulging muscles or a low-cut blouse — as the students in the desire and control groups. And what members of the love group did remember of the hotties was less likely to be an attractive feature than a sort of general, identifying characteristic like the location where the photo was shot or the color of an article of the hottie's clothing.
 
"These people could remember the color of a shirt or whether the photo was taken in New York, but they didn't remember anything tempting about the person," Gonzaga said. "It's not like their overall memory was impaired; it's as if they had selectively screened out things that would make them think about the how attractive the alternative was."
 
The findings are consistent with past research, which has shown that people in romantic relationships rate potential others as less attractive than their uncommitted counterparts. Research has also shown that when shown photos of attractive members of the opposite sex, people in romantic relationships tend to spend less time looking at the photos than noncommitted people.
 
"Earlier studies didn't examine whether love was driving the pattern," Haselton said. "It could be that people who end up in relationships might be the people who don't look at others. This is the first direct causal evidence between feeling love and defending a relationship from external threats."
 
Overall, reliving a loving moment with a romantic partner helped blunt the allure of a potential threat to the relationship.
 
"One of the biggest threats to a relationship is an attractive alternative to your loved one — or that attractive woman at work or the hot guy you meet in the bar," Gonzaga said. "In subtle ways that you might not even notice, the gushy feelings you get when you think of your partner help you fend off these threats."
 
Backed by 35 years of clinical and empirical research, eHarmony is one of the most popular online relationship services and is dedicated to building the relationships of both singles and married couples. The company was founded by relationship expert, best-selling author and clinical psychologist Dr. Neil Clark Warren.
 
UCLA is California's largest university, with an enrollment of nearly 37,000 undergraduate and graduate students. The UCLA College of Letters and Science and the university's 11 professional schools feature renowned faculty and offer more than 300 degree programs and majors. UCLA is a national and international leader in the breadth and quality of its academic, research, health care, cultural, continuing education and athletic programs. Four alumni and five faculty have been awarded the Nobel Prize.
slowly, i break out of seeing life through the eyes of an american. and last nights education lesson over wine, of course, was the dutch pension system. very interesting. a country with 50M people. whining and complaining in their youth because of their 55% income tax but in the latter years...lauding the system for 80% of last paychecks income pension return. absolutely amazing. talk about sprouting right wings with your first breath of dutch air.
i got f*cked.

and over lunch, we laughed at me about it. and we ensued to f*ck alex thrice more by the same mollusk as a nice digestif to a hearty meal.

but in my defense, the mollusk effed himself but i don't know the full story.

and my advice from my fellow american before fishing out the full story.

"i can't believe i'm saying this...but, BE NICE"




isn't it nice? happy birthday!

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my dad's secretary passed away monday night. mrs. rita bernagozzi. short, round, high haired, wobbly, awesome, generous, friendly, kind hearted, italian american and cooked a mean lasagna. she watched me grow up and regardless of the number of times i saw her per year, i would receive annual xmas and birthday gifts. she was with my dad for nearly 40 years and now she's gone. i'm sad. and i'm actually more sad over her passing than my grandfather's last month. i don't know why. maybe there was too much drama internally, or maybe i'm really worried for papa chin. pops is sad. he can't sleep. he can't eat. but he won't admit it. either way. we love you re re. rest in peace.
without all the mass media frenzy of department store sales, long weekend bbq parties, pool parties, beach getaways, fireworks, flags on front doors, i forgot it was american independence day. until i got this yahoo message....

"hey...you're american right?"
"yep"
"there's 20 of us heading to brewkerz for lunch"
"see u there"

in all honesty, i wasn't hungry. i was a bit woozy from the night prior and was looking for a pick-me-up drink. when i sat down at far end of 20 american oil guys, the hooplah had already ensued. beers n wings all around. then more beers n wings. i had a bloody mary to start and of course felt obligated for a beer. for the record, i have never ordered anything beyond salads and appetizers @ brewerkz for fear of food coma and the obesity that ensues. however, in this setting of bullish midwestern oil giants and the conversation of 'yellow fever', how could i be the lone 'boy' sans a heart attack meal? so i got another beer and ordered myself a chili dog. and when everyone paid the bill, there seemed to be an excess of 5XX dollars which of course went towards liver cerosis. WINE. WINE. WINE. WINE. WINE. WINE. WINE. WINE. 2 more left? WE'LL LIFT IT ALL. bullish americans.
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"do you ever hang out with poor people?" - v.n.

on sunday night, louisa and i headed to mister johnny chiou's house for sunday bbq. no special reason nor celebration, just a hospitable host gathering his friends for sunday gluttony. but before i continue this story, master of the house- mister johnny chiou needs his own special introductory preface...

he's 100% taiwanese by genes and blood.alcohol.content yet his aggressively tanned skin and his adolescent years in jakarta create a schizophrenic chasm that makes him gravitate and bond with any people of indonesian affiliation. but being married to a singaporean and after giving up his taiwanese passport for singaporean citizenship, has added the 3rd dimension of singlish that seemingly flows through his mouth so eloquently, especially when he argues so strongly for his country of residence. let's also not forget his american accent (have no clue how that came about)...which is cause for my cousin to brilliantly deem him his sole "american friend". this chameleon lack of ethnic loyalty only acts as as a backdrop for he who embodies the acronym "OTT" (over the top). for purposes of this blog, all u need to know is..."if it ain't wagyu it ain't going on my $10k grill"

johnny cooked a feast. we started with gado gado made by imelda and eiffel's maid, then johnnys caramelized onion funky salad. then cumin/paprika lamb chops. then shredded carrot and roasted garlic spaghetti, then usda rib eye, then wagyu, then taiwanese braised pork belly w/RICE. then cupcakes and cherries. and as if we weren't full enough, we turned it up a notch with the wine and sparkling wine. if there's anyone who's a sucker for media marketing it's me. johnny is the walking "stuff" magazine lifestyle pusher..."hey, this wine is a no bullshit wine...really perfect for the next in the progression"...and i just sit there..wide-eyed in greedy anticipation. that's how the night went. if i disagreed with his choice in grape, then we just opened another after that.

my guesstimation is that the entire meal was 5,800 calories. the exact specification of the coal quality im trying to push out. ironic. so if u're looking to buy some coal. u might rather go for a meal @ johnny's.