tweaking variables...

it's always a poignant moment when you realize you made a mistake.  the epiphany comes in the form of past advice you've consistently ignored.  for me, that revelation of humility resonated in the form of my mentor.  "실망이야...u don't need those friends...u don't really need to do all that...in the end....it doesn't take away who you are...just stay home...that's what you're supposed to do..."

i just couldn't grasp that concept before.   i felt it would take away too much of myself.  i felt that middle ground didn't need to restrain my social prowess...and i didn't want to wake up feeling annoyed at being restrained...but to be honest if i had to do it all over again, i'd still need this moment of clarity to fully be at ease with the transition of recalibrating my opportunity cost scale.

after a string of sleepless nights and melancholy mornings, i deactivated my facebook.  i had accusations circling over my conscience and the sadness wasn't worth it.  i want who i am to match the persona i portray.  it should be an accurate reflection upon each other finding a happy equilibrium to better oneself.