elephant in the room

as a high school student, i never understood the importance of non analytical subjects i.e. english and history.  i just didn't find any application of art history to the real world.  but as age and experience caught up with me, that's all changed...i'll have to say i'm the biggest believer in understanding history to better understand anything, anyone...everything.   the human element of all things in the world is what makes the human race a resilient species of intelligence, of intangibles, of love, of success and of happiness.  it also accounts for all bad things in fear, horror, shock and irrational in the world...and so to figure out what exactly is going on...history will explain a lot.

i'm not expert on history, tho i will read bits and pieces for instance understanding the chinese migration post famine helped me figure out how and why chinese dialects were spoken in certain regions of south east asia.  it helped me understand the background of chinese singaporeans.  and it's relation with the surrounding cultures.  which in turn helped me work with them when i lived there.

while in korea.  understanding it's geographical position, understanding its history and briefly studying the korean language...it helped me understand underlying passive aggression that befuddled me everyday in the work place.  understanding still does not mean it makes u better at dealing with it, but at least an understanding puts some kind of logic in place for a foreigner.

on a smaller scale, to understand people, specific individuals, being a listener of their personal history and then put that together with cultural nuances....third culture nuances.  similarities in american asian nuances...and a lot of intuition on top of that....it will develop a more mature methodology in dealing with a person.  no fear.  no pride.  no emotion.  but pure tactics of debate.  play to win.  play to win.

and so looking at the chess board.  knowing my gender role.  knowing the time frame as to where things are.  i put myself forward to decrease the amount of intangibles and uncertainties to wipe out the elephant in the room so issues are clear issues and because of specific things.  and not unsaid things.  cuz that's miserable.  tweaking variables.  like larry's poop chart.  hahahaha.

totally caught off guard.  sober.  spring street bar.  june 1st.  cheap ass drinks.