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i don't know what it is. but that picture started it all. if it wasn't that picture. it's been every picture (3 total) we've taken the past 2 years. otherwise why the random invite to sd? well, that started it all. and it was an amazing time. not many people can deal with me. not to mention me running around being in a wedding party...tho that story sums up nothing compared to a few days in la and then the hour of conversation on a wednesday happy hour. i sucked down tito's like an addict while she sipped and began the tale. i knew bits and pieces of "the story" but it's too complicated to remember, and especially when u're not told in one sitting. and how do you ask questions to fill in the blanks? you don't. u leave the blanks. and u figure the rest out as you go along. but i got to hear it all. we're the same age, we go through similar growing experiences. we are in the same era and currently we have similar adult hopeful goals. but our backgrounds are different, so i sat and listened and my insides swelled with thought, with awe, with amazement, continually asking for timestamps to figure out what emotional state i was in at that time. i had heard parts of the tale from her younger sister, but i too as the elder sibling grasps situations in better entirety. things started to make sense, things were placed in perspective and i, already swooning, felt more bewildered...felt more amazed. felt uplifted. like a whitney houston song. like that waiting to exhale soundtrack. uplifting. and that's only folklore. about 2 hours before that, through sharing travel experiences, i had an epiphany. i put timestamps together and realized...WOW...this JUST HAPPENED. and WOW, I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU. and WOW...WHOAAA. this is inspirational.

this blog documents ups and downs and mostly inebriated moments of my life. the past year has brought a wave of matured perspective that has yet to come into fruition. and years of adolescent thinking is a tough habit to break. trial and error is TRYING and takes time...luck has not necessarily been on my side so many times things spiral out of hand with little or no direction. the only thing u can do is be proactive, be positive. try to continue to do whats right by you and those around you. and so when u hear similar stories of continued effort paying off, luck, timing, etc...it is effin inspiring. it's my blind side.

this beer tastes funny...