fuggin got the runs again....

when i was applying for uni's....there was something called student "energy" that was brought to my attention that uni's wanted to see...it was that energy a student had to be able to pull off the grades alongside a schmorgasborg of over achieving extras...with strict physical hours stuck in school and the dependence on parents for transportation and much more, don't ya'll remember that TIME was always lacking? (at least on the dork front...that is until the illfated fill-in-the-blank)...regardless, i guess the point was to run a strict regime up till the 'state determined legal age' to develop independent good decision making skills....so less time into choice....and more time into just doing....


you ever wonder where in the world that energy went? and try correlating that energy to certain pure principles that you used to adhere to but lost the energy defending them?....its easy to fill these traits into big career decisions...but rather try it for minor instances of apathy...


man....maybe i started self introspection too early....being able to chronicle self reflection at age 25 can't be a plus......


so i went out again tonight...utterly felt like shit all day....couldn't sleep, arissa claimed that she woke up middle of the night jsut to puke...janie had bowel movements before bed and i couldn't even make it through the gym...had to come home early and be braindead until right before heading out to go parrttayyyy..."even if im sick i'll parttaaayyy"........so i still made it out...walked around in the humidity helped...sweated out some pain..but the real cure didnt' arrive until i took my first shot of tequila....good seeing the new and dainty xiao.....till tomorrow....u'lll see the pictures then

"looks are overrated....."

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