a night in huntington

the last time i was at finnigans it was 1999 over thanksgiving.  i came home from college, so did everyone from high school.  cheap drinks and old memories filled the place.  i hope i slept on someones couch that night cuz boy was there some drinking to be had that should not have involved driving.  and 13 years later, i met JT in huntington where nostalgia mixed with new found sense of maturity kicked in.  3 drinks over 4 hours, teary eyed as i walked past lacrosse unlimited and then a dinner that was reminiscent of the post football/wrestling/lacrosse practices meals on the way home.  suburban north face cuisine.  artichoke hearts and a pasta.  and it dawned on me once again...i'm not ready for the 'burbs. 

watching/talking and eating with people that yearn for the stable life is... bewilderingly refreshing.  how someone can sit there and be happy with their bowl of cereal and want nothing more than another bowl of the same cereal is something i wish could infect me just a tad.  it's all perspective isn't it?

i see two people sit across from me.  in oppositie financial situations.  in opposite career paths.  but in similar relationship phases.  and the approach towards the future is an absolute inverse.  and the argument against being content is temptation?  greed?  and yet the argument against greed is that is there really anything else better?  

"how are you so sure?  do you have doubts?"

i'm definitely not the right person to talk to about this stuff.  cuz i give perspective.  which gives options.  which is ultimately not necessary.

the next time i come back.  things and people will be different.  a quick stop at coffee shop to see john and hoan had them telling me the story of..."if you guys didn't joke about it, i would've gone into harry winstons and thought ring sizes came in small/medium or large"...and then after a quick coffee with mish who said "maybe u just need to look at whats right in front of you."....i realized...this is the last time i'll see this apt.

cuz while some people plan for settling down, CM is planning for kids, steves looking to move back to asia and ray's still got sprouty's list.  mexican radio.  boxing.  hill country.  and a walk in the park with julia tang.