this week is finally over. 

bad monday.  worse tuesday.  this has got to be rock bottom wednesday.  holy why me thursday.  stick a fork in me friday.  at least it's over.  and am i avoiding people?  i guess sometimes when im in a bad mood i don't like seeing my own friends cuz i've developed such a certain persona to be when im out that when im not up to bar and just a bit more reticent, it's not just i want to be quiet, im probably not in the mood to be berated.  why can't people understand it rather than then flipping the table and asking me whats wrong.  exercise tact when you know ur friend is not in  good mood.  duH.

and so im dealing with presumptuous fucks.  and others that have blatantly decided an agenda against me.  and after a year of taking snide remarks, all i have to say is "u got a problem with the things at hand? go head do what you need to do.  you got personal issues with me?  keep that shit to yourself and your cohorts.  unless you got proof, don't you EVER say that to me again"...people really are only out to cover their own ass.  and when shit hits the fan, people are so quick to point fingers.  and if im the only person taking responsibility for my own actions, i look retarded.  now i cover my own ass.  peacock when im right.  and well, in the end, something better work out or seriously. don't tell me about going to church.  there's no god.  dot dot dot.  just kidding.

low patience and a more aggressive attitude both socially and professionally is a direct result of living in in new york, maturing and my job.  it's something that i've been very reflective about lately.  whatever i was doing before wasn't working.  that's what i keep saying.  time to make some changes. and these little things all add up and essentially develop me into a different person.  not necessarily different person, but makes me grow apart with my past.  and things that were in my past.  it's sad isn't it?

i guess i did eat out a lot though.

saturday - arang...handsome dan and a married woman.  took her all of 30 seconds to  say "ok im leaving now"

"so many pee poh wan mai pee goo"  - aleeesshiiiaaa

sunday - dong hu flushing.  ran into dave chang.  "now you know my type.  find me one and i'll make you famous. oficinado nyc. tom n jerry

monday - long island

tuesday - fresco's

wednesday - john dory.  gsvrt rooftop.  asselina. 

 

thursday - almond.

friday -  new zealand lunch. dons bogum. sleeeeep.

saturday morning bagels!