chewy

in 2003-2004 i was living with my ex girlfriend.  she had a shih tzu that i grew extremely fond of.  im essentially the same person, but after a stint around the world, i'm no longer that same person that is so attached to dogs that i'm willing to volunteer for that responsibility.  a lot has to do with the guilt of me actually giving the pooch the attention he deserves...i've got other stuff going on in my life now and i can't bear the guilt of leaving him home and not playing with him.  not letting him sleep on my bed cuz he's dirty and i'm too tired to wash him.  not letting him run all over my life...i still want a dog.  i want what that unconditional love that dogs have to offer.  i want that innate bonding factor that brings families together and i want that warmth in my life.  but i just don't want that full responsibility. ideally, i wouldn't even want to co-raise a dog with an other, but rather have my parents and i share the responsiblity of raising the dog.  where they keep him, and i just play with him.  =)  gives my dad a companion since mom just left for asia.  gives dad a reason to exercise 2x a day at minimum.  and makes us closer cuz we'll talk about the dog when we run out of stuff to say.