in a funk...

am i in one? of course rumor has it that if anyone is in an actual state of funk...i'd be the one to help break them out of it, the same kind of irony if will ever complained of breathing issues....the same kind of irony if esther ever complained of having too many friends in jersey...the list could really go on....

now that i'm a 5x a week student studying chinese, me even trying to keep up in my english journals and of course this english blog has been some what of a problem...plucked and pulped from 5 days a week of homework, and not to mention, my thoughts are slowly moving into fob territory....more clear in chinese?....or first response...is in chinese....odd?..weird? but good...it's exactly what i was hoping for....

there comes certain phases in ur life....(thanks mr murakami)....where ur window of opportunity to excel at things closes right before ur eyes....then again the opportunity cost of delving into those things may take away from ur conformed path of life....but u weigh those things out...along with the regret factor, some intangibles and logistics....and well...if it wasn't evident already to u readers, i've taken that sidestep into an initial muddled oblivion (the natural definition) and translated that into a somewaht calculated abyss...almost in essence proactively hoping for something to fall into my lap....and by the way...is it possible for readers...especially most of my peers who come from the pushpush genre of metropolis frenzy....to right brain this piece...i'll turn kerouac into a verb....KEROUAC IT...and stop thinking of logistics....if you could do it..and somehow u could.......i'm doing it...leave it at that..and let the emotional burdens be of priority....wing it and run....cash does grow on trees...just find the right tree to hump =) ....men are dogs....justification is right next to ignorance on the bliss scale...although DRUNK tops both...cheers.

it really could just be the darn weather.....somewhat of a tiring weekend....residentialy partying rather than ur vacationer taking a gander at a 3 day feast of liver obliteration...although...if u know me...its hard to distinguish the two...probably the only way to see the difference is venue and care of outside appearance...which....then again...is also a wash.....in anycase....i, the freshmen, who has never seen a drop of liquor, limited the weekend to 1 hangover and managed to miss my first class yesteday due to a much needed re-coop for sleep. re-coop did nothing apparently, cuz i just napped 10 minute intervals since 11am this morning....damn humidity.

does tryptophan come in forms of fried foods and not just specific meats?...can you call one type of food tryptohyptophanatic?...can you have residual tryptophographic fatigue? ....u ever wonder if you could bottle of appetite euphoria into a drug...rather than selling dexatrim...which suppresses appetite...give the person that willy wonka full course meal in a stick of gum....satiating hunger with a couple chews of toxic euphoric oral disaster....hell i'd take it....

how can you try to be a popstar if you can't read the words....working on it...really working on it.......how can you study and go through popstar training if you don't eat....

name that food!