white elephant

i can't shake this bad luck thing.  every two weeks something comes up.  things you just can't control.  things that you didn't do anything wrong...things you couldn't have done better...things you couldn't have prevented.  things that make you say....why me??  to the point where you can't even do something nice for someone else....a  completely selfless act...and not even that works out....the more they add up....and the more they get compounded....it was a trivial moment...but it just became a trigger....sigh