i've gone through a few pretty grueling med school interviews in my 'heyday' and it's not just the actual interview that's intense but mostly all the baloney leading up to it...a few weeks of anticipation stress, hours of realtime bullshitting stress....and then the post stress along with the next days hangover stress.....

as tough as those few experiences were, i'll tell you that going through a night out at a bar, 6 hours at the bed tonight, WITHOUT one friggin single drop of alcohol is a feat that i'll add to the list of lifetime achievements...tonight was the month anniversary of my sobriety and i guess that month of clarity ironically acted like as a month of memory loss as to forgetting how hard it'd be not to drink, to get through the peer pressure....i'll have to say the 3 stooges put up quite a valiant effort, and maybe it's cuz our lifelong history together hasn't been all that extensive that their attempts were futile...(because i know that if i was in the states i would not make this non drinking bet purely due to L.O.P.)...

NO, i can't have AS good of a time without alcohol...i'm sorry, i'm just not at that point in life, if ever...(the phrase "i'm high on life" includes quite a bit of drinking)....i sincerely enjoy the feeling of being completely obliterated and watching others drink does not make me think..."oh what a bunch of idiots" but rather "OH SHIT...im completely missing out on this feeling"...the same jokes you've heard 100x are funny, but not as funny, the same face cramp conducing stories are funny, but not that funny...the conversation and smiles are a bit forced and worse of all, the awkward silences are AWKWARD....usually a "SOCIAL" can fill just about anything...if u're not slurring, ur hunger doesn't have a "spot to hit"....wings dont taste as good, fried chicken doesn't taste as good, the street food doesn't taste as good, shit just don't hit the spot!....and whats a night without a good PUKE (puke buddy larry is in town anyways)...ok ok..just kidding...not to mention...not drinking totally fucks up my diet...not being part of the drunken stupor can really make you depressed...and knowing all the calories you're not ingesting by not drinking, you think eating will help...so you binge at the end of the night...i really do think this would count as a disorder.....i'll admit that.....

don't get me wrong....i had a great time tonight...but i think all things in life need to be viewed in light of OPPORTUNITY COST....

willie even got on his knees to beg me to drink....so i picked up the glass....and put it back down...

the chicken graveyard....(bennet is not quite what LOP is but a chickenator nonetheless)

it's really hard to stay out all night if you're not drinking...

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quote of the night:

"i think you spend a lot of time with your friends..........THIS AIN'T BROKEBACK"