a moment of clarity....

i'm never going to escape the reality that i just like drinking too much!...it's just never going to happen....at least i can't really envision it anytime soon, (i'm one of those people who don't swear off alcohol for eternity amidst the 36 hour hangover only because my stream of conscious pain holds onto that amazing buzz that comes as the byproduct)....in anycase...this post is due to movies and liquor...i miss soju (a note for penpen -- SOJU STRAIGHT and preferably chased with a long metal spoon cradling kimchee jigeh)...and thats cuz i saw a korean movie last night...everytime i see koreans drinking soju in movies...which is EVERY MOVIE....i want to drink some....and tonights reason for a not-gonna-happen sloshfest (because i have to be up early) is cuz i saw "alot like love", once they started pouring the JD, i savoured the pain....the post "AHHHH" yawns...clenched my fists only to say...ONE MORE FOR THE KID IN THE BACK....=)

now in efforts to slim down from 500lbs....i've been thinking that alcohol has been my downfall my weightloss schematic....my triangle of wellness is more of a bipolar pull btwn an alternating negative variable of 2 gym's and the excessive food versus the excessive alky variable....life without that excessive adjective for he who lives like thy lush....would be severely devasting (let it be stated that testosterone rages as a staple on this page -- my comments on other peoples pages stand for that -- so the "sex" need is a given).....regardless....this sober lifestyle....for extended periods of time...is making me ache to plan for tomorrow night....oh its looking like a hungover sunday....which problematically is my grandmother's birthday...along with an early morning at the convention center....

will, i'm sure you can remember all those emails....1 week was 5 days too long without that --when it hits ur lips it tastes sooooo gooood -- "I craved a swig of whiskey, but it was in the knapsack on my back and the idea of twisting around to extract the bottle did not seem altogether wise.  Nix on that.  So I thought about having a drink instead.  A quiet bar, MJQ's Vendome playing low, a bowl of nuts, a double whiskey on the rocks.  The glass is sitting on the counter, untouched for a moment, just looked at.  Whiskey, like a beautiful woman, demands appreciation.  You gaze first, then it's time to drink" - murakami.

back to geetar...someone send me mp3z please...or put me on the get-file list on AIM....a lot like love soundtrack please?......so in your moments when u're quickly trying to hold on to a fleeting thought, does it take that much effort to type grammatically correct?  with capitals and periods and comma's?  fine, ur one leeway would be phrases are allowed, but has the cyber chat style world made colloquial typing the standard?  i used to get snail mail from a friend and she would write...in one long ridiculously run-on-ed paragraph.....maybe thats where i got it from....OH WAIT>..NO ....thanks ann--bolded in case she forgets to read all the text, this will get her....(punch line was premeditated from about 30 words ago -)

oh yes...did i mention im part of a racing team? larrry's my boss....jalanger.com.

cheers.