"childish enthusiasm" 

 

you ever feel the need to test yourself?...to prove your own ability?...to check up on your competence/intelligence/wittyness?...do things to prove to yourself that you can do it...(still do it/still got it)...i'm focusing less on social abilities, but more of real competence of skills and knowledge or simple instances of wit...

is this a sign of a lack of security and confidence? especially if you need to tell yourself "you still got it"??...or is this a method of pushing yourself to the next level...constanly giviing yourself a challenge to not only learn new things but also to retain and hone your skills u've learned in the past....

 

...just got back from tahoe...

haven't been to work in 2 days...painful ass...skipped the rail to hit the jump and land of my ass...wondaful!....ate nothing but pizza....drank 14 of 24 hours each day....i think thats about it...

the trip to the rockies made me immediately associate...jack kerouac's "on the road"...yes times have changed since he wrote the book..but the essence of the midwest remains illustriously evident in its magnificent natural surroundings...the sheer geographic terrain embodies kerouac's enthusiasm outwest....even though i hate roadtrippping in cars for LONG LONG periods of time...i must say..the thought of (as i quote esther mixed with paraphrasing jk) "we gotta just really get an RV and go ghetto....traverse the entire country swiggin whiskey which we bought with our last bits of money...and doing nothing but enjoying the simplicities of life...." 

gonna go find that book again -- maybe actually finish it this time....this ones for you alvin.....hehehe...